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Donut says hello, and so do I

Summer is over, and Fall is happening. It's been a strange year for me. I've felt tired and worn out for the whole of it. Not very much happened over the summer, it seems like I sleptwalk through it. I find myself wondering if the cold weather is going to wake me up, or if it will keep me feeling threadbare. I'm doing my best to wake up in the morning and choose to be an energized human being, but I am not getting hard on myself if I wake up feeling that to be an impossibility. I recently changed to a new SSRI medication. The old ones made me supernaturally tired and "flat" feeling. It is a little frustrating what an inexact science navigating these medications is, but they tell me that's the only way you really figure out what works. I always imagined changing your stars to be a little more romantic than that.

Anyway! I've picked up a little paper planner that I want to try to do some light weight "habit tracking" in. I find that to be a very loaded term that means a lot of wildly different things to different people. I'm trying to keep things simple. I have a few things I'd like to do more of such as working out, practicing guitar, drawing/journaling, etc. I want to use habit tracking as a way to provide a little bit of accountability to myself and also visualize at a glance whether or not I'm really succeeding in these little goals and participating in them, or just thinking about doing so. I don't want to involve any apps, or super involved bullet journaling workflows or layouts. All I need to see at the end of a particular week (this is a weekly paper planner) is whether or not I put in some effort. I am not tying to use habit tracking as a way to guilt myself into doing these things. That wouldn't be very helpful. I just want to celebrate slow and steady proress.

Oh, also: Donut says hi.

Picture of my dog donut laying on the couch looking at the camera. Only the top of his head anove his nose is visible, the rest of his body is obscured by my couch.